About two years ago, I set out on a journey of many awakenings, energetically, emotionally and spiritually. It began when I faced some very serious fears in my life... I faced them and made a conscious choice not to let them control my life. I took a big leap, made some huge changes by leaving a relationship behind that had been fueled by fears for a long time. In doing this, I freed myself, you could say. I gained this new depth of insight into myself, and a greater sense of clarity around whom I truly am, what I want to have in my life, what is serving me and what isn't. I also now recognize fears in other people and I have the courage to speak of what I sense when appropriate. Some times, I choose to give support in more subtle ways than direct communication.

Anyway, the gift is that my clarity around what is my stuff and what is others has improved so much, so I rarely take anything personally anymore and that allows for so much more space for my heart to be present with whatever situation presents itself to me. It is the freeing of the fears that have allowed my heart to open up more and finally I can play and laugh with a joy that comes completely naturally and can help disarm anything that needs to be disarmed. And this is only the emotional implications of what is happening to me in my life right now.

On another level, I am experiencing changes in my body or rather my relationship to my body is changing. I feel energy coursing through my entire body. I feel so much more alive. Some days are more powerful than others. I usually wake in the morning feeling energy most strongly in my feet; the energy usually runs to my heart and up to the top of my head. The energy feels like light, lightness. I can sit in meditation and consciously move the energy. I have also succeeded transferring it to a friend. It is certainly something that is noticed often by others I meet.

Spring in Cambridge, April 2013Now, when I am physical, I feel a lightness, a youthfulness and energy that I haven't felt before. The lovers I have had in my life since I began this journey of energy, have given me such immense experiences of pleasure that I have never had before and my whole body has been affected with lightness. At times, I have experienced a light shining from within me. Something I have seen with my inner eye. I find a greater need to be in my body these days. I used to be able to sit still for many hours, now with all this energy buzzing through me, I need to move, share my energy with others and communicate more often. This experience I am having I can best describe as Shakti pouring through me. I find it easy to laugh in the company of people, even when I am by myself. There is this inherent joy inside that just persists and bubbles over, especially when I am present with other people. I still have feelings of sadness and anger in me, and I still experience fear, but none of them persists for very long and I consciously direct my heart into the direction I want to go.

I feel, we all have our own true expression of love. Love doesn't have any particular shape, it empowers us, it lifts us, it puzzles us, it can even hurt us, but we won't experience it truly unless we surrender to it, and in a relationship to the other sex, there is the physical aspect of surrendering and that part I had had fears around which I have surrendered and it has freed up so much space for me to have truly amazing, ecstatic experiences.

Introducing, fresh off the print-on-demand presses:

above the underground by nya g fleron front book coverAbove the Underground

A Sci-fi Novel by Nya Gregor Fleron

Above the Underground is about a young woman Sera, who comes to New York in year 2042 to study. New York has become an underground city since the Final War in 2020, where most of the East Coast of the U.S. was obliterated by bioweapons. NY is still a prominent city tightly governed by a mysterious group of people ‘the Ustodians’ who are running the city under very strict guidelines. Her real journey of the mind and spirit starts when Sera begins to dig under the surface of this apparently well-functioning city.A number of events and encounters of people throw her unwillingly into a reality and a city, which is much different from the New York she first encountered and gradually her experience of the world expands to new dimensions.The book is about a woman’s and a city’s empowering awakening. Even in the darkest of places a light exists. It is not essential to find the light, it is essential being it.

“There were no rays of sunlight coming in through cracks or windows, bringing a little warmth to the place.There were only endless street tunnels and railways stretching and winding like big fat snakes, sleeping in their domain, waiting to smell their prey and devour it. But they said this was now the safest place in the world to live, since the division of powers in the world had shifted and the weakest had taken the positions of the strongest.”

Part 1, Chapter III

alchemy-circle"There are three gates of liberation if you like, three cities much like the ones associated with the Goddess you have been named after that unites the chemistry experiment: the material, astral and causal. You get a chance to mix those together in your alembic and boom a wedding of chemical proportions is what we are looking at."
Part II: Chapter 15

lovers"By impulse, she looked above her. On the branches of the peppermint tree, birds had gathered. In the invisible spaces that she could see when she called herself back to the state she had been in at Helena’s house, she saw beings smiling to her. They had gathered around Kama and Lalita, wherever there was space. She could see their faces at the very back of the garden, where the star jasmine spread its stems. With the sound of the birds above and the earth vibrating underneath, she knew they all urged her to let go, to feel the earth and sky sing to her, to let her take in the glory of it all."
Part III: Chapter 33

kalisgift-anovelbyNYA-hzKali’s Gift is a timeless tale of love and spirituality, set in the desert land of Perth, Australia. A well-educated and enigmatic couple who have lived a reclusive life for many years invite a young woman artist named Lalita into their home and life. Though clearly independent in her expression and personality, Lalita is unknowingly thrown into a strange world of magic and meditation, love and alchemy, where she is destined to be profoundly transformed and in turn to transform the people around her. In the alembic of this story, you will find an alchemical composition of mysticism, dreams, transformational art, love triangles, ecstatic and astral awakenings and entanglements of magical and spiritual proportions that may astound you or at least captivate your heart and mind.

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