Still euphoric from our meeting
I forgot to feel ashamed
from the wild spontaneity we explored,
sensuous love without restraints.
And so I started walking
following my spontaneous spirit
and adventurous mind,
seeing the world as for the first time.
It was then,
I realized I felt no more shame of being.
When I went alone into the dark woods
to confront my greatest fears,
to release a broken heart back to you
and dissolve an anger
that I never knew existed,
I got terribly lost.
Despite the adrenalin from fear and excitement alike
pumped wildly inside,
I found the courage to ask
a stranger for help
and I found my way back.
When I was back on familiar grounds,
I found,
I had lost my shame in the woods and
now, I feel without restraints.
After I lost my shame,
my life has become
a celebration
of who I am, was and will be
of how much more I can fathom
of how much more joy I can inspire
of how much more love there is.
"There are three gates of liberation if you like, three cities much like the ones associated with the Goddess you have been named after that unites the chemistry experiment: the material, astral and causal. You get a chance to mix those together in your alembic and boom a wedding of chemical proportions is what we are looking at."
"By impulse, she looked above her. On the branches of the peppermint tree, birds had gathered. In the invisible spaces that she could see when she called herself back to the state she had been in at Helena’s house, she saw beings smiling to her. They had gathered around Kama and Lalita, wherever there was space. She could see their faces at the very back of the garden, where the star jasmine spread its stems. With the sound of the birds above and the earth vibrating underneath, she knew they all urged her to let go, to feel the earth and sky sing to her, to let her take in the glory of it all."
